… hands

Hands grasping

Knuckles straining

Sheets ripping

Head thrashing

Breath catching

Sweat slicking

Skin flushing

Whimpering

Moaning

Gasping

Crashing

there …

There are days at a time

Stitched together with hope

I can forget you.

The quiet bliss

Settling over me like a soft rain

Washing away the insistent ache.

And then like lightening ripping open the sky

My heart reminds me

You’re out there,

But not mine.

That soft rain turning to a deluge

Soaked instantly.

Tear tracks and raindrops

Dancing along my skin

I bring the storms with my sorrow

The sky crying out it’s lonlieness

And it’s comforting,

Not being alone.

… this

This longing is constant

Woven into the fabric of my days

My soul full of yearning

To dance

To frolic with yours

Once again

Because you see dearest

We’ve loved throughout lifetimes

Faded with time

So long ago they were

Now I wait for you to recall

The way only my love tastes

As the ripples of my existence

Beckon you to come play once more

…wanting

Wanting you hits me in waves

So devastatingly strong

It’s all but crippling.

I cannot move

Can scarcely even breathe

While every cell screams out your name.

The ache swallows me whole

Over and over.

An endless cycle of need,

I am but a slave to my desire

Trembling as once again

You overtake me.

… locked

Locked inside my imagination

Without limits

Or restrictions.

I savor you

Every which way.

Where you are mine

Ripe for exploration

Over and over again.

Hands gripping hips,

And lips traversing thighs.

Constellations painted across skin

Adventurers lost in delicious sin.

The air bathed in growled moans

Mingled with gasping sighs.

I’ll see you again my love,

At each and every moonrise.

… the

The love I’ve searched for

Spent countless days

Wishing away

It occurs to me only now

That I needn’t wait

For only I can love myself like that

And I suddenly felt ashamed

Of all the years spent wasted

Missing out on that love

Wandering aimlessly

When all along

I could have been pouring

It into myself

…I

I can,

Dance recklessly in hope.

I’m trying,

But losing the magic of the moment.

Why not,

When you’ve already turned to walk away?

I won’t,

Stand here on my own waiting,

Anymore.

… those

Those of us who feel deeply

Death of hope blazes across the mind

Searing moments in memories,

Locking those away behind a wall

To pull out and dust off periodically.

Each tear shed holds words unsaid

Is there anything worse?

The absence, the soul crushing emptiness

Would rewind fix anything?

Time doesn’t go backwards

Always trudging endlessly forward

So the words I cannot say to you

Pour down my cheeks in paragraphs.

… in bed

In bed and minutes tick slowly

Why not your arms that hold me?

Aching for just a bit of you

A smile, a touch, or even a thought.

My heart screams your name

Beating against the prison bars

Shhhhhh I tell it

Not his. Not today.

Doesn’t matter anyway

… lost

Lost in darkness my mind runs away

The only place I know for sure

You’d be waiting there for me

Deep, and deeper still

Within my dreams are found

Those things I wish you felt

Instead all I see is the love

I have locked away, reflected back

At me.

…I’m

I’m fairly certain

You and I have met before

Souls seemingly connected

Drawn to each with a magnetic clink

Such as the ocean meets the shore

Inevitably, unable to change course

My heart longs for yours evermore